sigh

"Shake it off.
Pick yourself up, they say.
Your life fell apart in your hands, and you've got the scars to prove it.
It's not the first time, and they're getting deeper.
Pull it together.
Button up your shirt.
Roll down those sleeves.
Don't let them see how you've coped.
More and more your demeanor looks like quicksand.
It seems like your giving up on everything you worked for.
It's pulling you under.
It's gripping around your throat.
Life can be overwhelming, but don't turn your back on the strongest crutch you've ever had.
They have always been there to brace your fall.
Wave goodbye to the past.
You've got your whole life to lead.
It's time to gain some ground."

august burns red- composure

i'm posting this because of the lyric
"more and more your demeanor looks like quicksand"

it's fitting.

puppy time!

Haven't had a dog since last october, and now I've finally got one. He's a 10 week old Labradoodle who has yet to be named. This past friday my mom, Eva and I drove an hour and a half away to go pick him up at a breeder. So far there have been a few accidents, some biting and a lot of cute puppy moments. this dog rocks.

so it's ben, again. his yearbook is doing a page on him and his music stuff and I got to do the shoot for it. Editorial shoot, right? haha.

tomorrow I have a play date with my friends Kill Your Ex, we're shooting right before their show at the skatepark in Rogers, MN.

Make sure to check out Dustin Snipes. If you don't know this guy, know him. His photography is absolutely breathtaking. Normally I find sports photography quite dull and bland, but this guy is so talented, he was definitely born to do this. plus he has an awesome blog.

so theres the self portrait.

yargh.....

so lately i have not been happy with my photography. the last band shoot i did i was very meh about, and i just got an email from the record label saying that they want a re shoot. i just need to take some time and really work with the lighting i'm using and post production and spend more time lining up shots/scouting locations. i am going to sit down tomorrow and spend a lot of time on a self portrait until it is lit perfectly, exactly how i want it.

wish me luck.

"Just take it in stride.
One breath and I think I feel free.
All we can do is strive for the best thoughts,
the best feelings, the "warm fuzzy" feeling.
As a child, I believed these all came to me due to the process of living.
Grab the wheel right now, and make this life yours.
Walk with me.
Leave your disgusting fever.
Take this life - make it yours.
Forgotten are the days of wandering pointlessly in my dreams.
Carry me with your wings."

August burns red lyrics to Endorphins.

Today/yesterday took a pretty stressful turn because I found out I needed two new tires for my car, which is never cheap. It ended up being cheaper than expected, but i was still left with a $266 dollar bill just waiting for me to sign. Fortunately I got back a senior that I had thought I lost to a lame portrait photography company, so I'm doing that on tuesday (weather willingly) and yeah. Hopefully things with money will start turning around a little bit here. Working at levi's is fun and all....... but I gotta get that money somehow.

Grab the wheel right now, make this life yours

ugh

this is a shot from a set I did for this couple Kyle and Ciera. I've known kyle for a long time and ciera is a photographer, so it was a good time.

So I want to fill you in on something that I find extremely frustrating.

People who flake on photo shoots. I have had this shoot booked, and rescheduled 4 times, and now he decides to go with David Banks Studio. www.davidbankstudios.com. one of the most generic, boring and lame photography studios in this area. I'm not saying I'm a great photographer or building my ego, but honestly this is a tad ridiculous.

Seniors, bands, portraits, everything falls through. Maybe I need to just take it to heart and up the game with my photography, which I'm already working on, or I need to try and start dealing with other people.

How frustrating.